Assignment for Wednesday (9/28/11): Complete the Reflection and Discussion Questions #1-4 on p. 45-46. Visit Melissa’s blog for a great post today.
1. Think back to your childhood and your first memory of God. Describe your image of Him growing up:
Oh hard question to start off with. My first image! Wow, why is this so hard? I have been going to Mass as long as I can remember but we never really talked about God at home. He was a once a week thing at Mass and I learned about religion at Catholic school but I can say I never really had any discussions about God before adulthood.
I remember at times being afraid of God and being judged. I can also remember thinking that the Bible were just stories made up by some people. I never really “got” the full impact of the Bible until 8-10 years ago. My image was of God being far away and punishing you if you did wrong. I tried so hard even as a very young child to please Him and my parents.
2. How does your childhood perception of God compare to what your see in Christ through His interaction with Sam? List the similarities and the differences.
There are no similarities. The differences: He isn’t far away, He is loving and kind, with a gentle voice, not a booming loud yell. He took the punishment for me and He never judges you. He will meet you right where you are.
3. Do you ever feel like you are the only one who struggles with insecurity or doubt? Why or why not?
All the time, everyone else seems so all together, like they don’t have a care in the world. Their world – job, husband, kids, home, bank account, appearance, decorating, talents, etc. seem to be so much better compared to me. My world is filled with so much chaos. Everyone else just seems so much more confident and sure of themselves. I still feel like a kid waiting to feel grown up!
4. Jesus wants to create a safe place for you to be transparent with Him. Where you can ask questions and be real about your desires, doubts, disappointments and reams. he knows you and want s you to really know Him. Is the thought of this kind of relationship with God comforting or uncomfortable, why?
It is so comforting to me because He is my Creator, and I want so much to be transparent and real. I am so tired of feeling like I have to hide or being ashamed of how I feel, even if my thinking is incorrect. I just want to be me. I want to talk about all that I feel, to say out loud my dreams, doubts, disappointments without worrying about how it sounds or what someone thinks of me.
It’s uncomfortable too because I don’t know who I am. How can I be real when I am unsure who that is? How do I get to know the real me?