Today has been a mixture of emotions all day long. First I slept maybe one hour last night so I am exhausted and on edge already and then the devil tries to get my focus on other things instead of God. I started having some feelings jealousy rise, feelings of not being able to say the right things and not feeling important and good enough.
The one thing that I kept thinking about today was how rejection defined me my whole life. I started to feel that on and off all day today but I never let it get far and I kept remembering how the LORD spoke to me several years ago when I was in despair. I cried out in a lost and broken heart at a time of being rejected once again by someone close to me “just once, once in my life I want to matter so much to someone, that they stand up and fight for me – just once can’t I be loved that much?” and clear as if He was in the room with me, my LORD spoke and said…..
“Veronica I do and I did”
What else is there to say to that? He does and He did ~ then, now and forever! I will hold tight to that.