Ironic thing ~ 12 hours later and I feel a lot different. I am sitting in the house alone for the 1st time in I don’t know how long and I should be soaking it up, instead I feel sad and lonely. I feel forgotten yet most of the time I can’t wait to snatch some alone time. I feel depleted ~ how can I go from one extreme to the another in a short 12 hour period? What has changed?
Ah, my focus, I took my eyes off Him for a short while and started to think about me. What was my first clue that something was off? I felt cluttered – best way to describe it. the funny thing about that though is I have spent the last 4-5 days de-cluttering my home but what about my mind? I need to de-clutter my mind of everything that is not of HIM and about HIM.
Clutter, distractions, busyness – it all points to losing our focus of Jesus.
After about 2 hours of feeling sorry for myself I opened my journal, my Bible and my devotional by Joyce Meyer. god showed me instantly how right I was to come to Him. The first words of the devotional:
Life is busy and filled with distractions….
Yeah, I picked up on that! Joyce Meyer goes on to tell of Mary & Joseph losing Jesus. It took them a full day to realize Jesus was missing! And it took them THREE days to find HIM again! Take that in:
One day to lose focus of Him and He went missing. Three days to find Him once again!
Then Joyce Meyer says something that lifted my spirits:
We need to be careful to remain in the presence of God. When we do, we make God feel at home in our hearts.”
I LOVE that! Merriam-Webster’s definition of HOME:
- the social unit formed by a family living together
The definition of AT HOME:
- relaxed and comfortable: at ease
- in harmony with the surroundings
Now imagine that “God feels at home in our hearts” He is living with us as a family. He is at ease – relaxed and comfortable and in harmony with the surroundings of our heart.
Doesn’t that just bring you instant comfort and peace? It does me – how can I feel lonely knowing God is at home in my heart? As long as I don’t take my focus off Him I can’t but the minute I start looking to others to fill me I will feel lonely – even if I am in an arena filled with thousands of people.
The Scripture for the devotion from Joyce Meyer:
If a man loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him” ~ John 14:23
The study Bible note says: Our home with Him ~ through grace the living presence of the Trinity inhabits the hearts of the faithful.
I wonder shy when I get a minute of peace and the distractions fade away, why does a sense of loneliness and sadness creep in (yes because I took my focus off Him) but I think there is a bit more to it. I think it’s because in this day our lives are so consumed with hundreds of things and impossible deadlines that when our bodies are at rest finally – it’s almost a shock to our system and so it senses something is wrong. So the mind starts telling us all the ways we failed. That is my thought anyways. My mind and body doesn’t know how to enjoy a slower pace as soon as I slow down thousands of thoughts start up. But now I will imagine god being at ease in my heart and in harmony with the surroundings and relax in that. Because lets face it the peace and calm doesn’t last all that long before responsibilities and demands invade us again.