Although today Melissa’s website is talking about chapter 6, I took a little bit longer on chapter 5.
How many times have I went through the honeymoon phase and believe “this time I will succeed, this time is different?” Too many times to count and something always throws me off. So why will this time be different, because this time I am not doing it for the compliments, I am not doing it to feel better about myself through MY actions and I am not doing it to stand out and say look at what I HAVE accomplished. Instead I am growing closer to God, relying on Him to be my everything and that’s why this time WILL be different. I am not beginning another cycle – I am putting a stop to the cycle once and for all, letting God be my everything.
Every year of since I was 5 years old on Ash Wednesday through Holy Saturday I gave up something that means the world to me. For those six weeks although I may miss my “forbidden” item I am able to give it up. Why? Because I knew there was a higher purpose, a sacrifice to show my dependence on God. This is no different, it’s just a lifetime change instead of 6 weeks during Lent.
Looking back on all the “things” I have given up through the years tells me I have been practicing for this journey. I have given up at one time or another:
- Snacking in between meals
- Distractions: computer, games, facebook, etc.
During Lent I also add something to my daily life that brings me closer to God:
- Spending more time in prayer
- Time with family
- Giving more of my time and talents
Each time during Lent when the cravings for the forbidden item would come up I would offer a prayer “I am offering my wants up to You, Lord, I am lovingly sacrificing my wants to walk with You in a deeper way.”
Why I never put tow and two together before beats me but now that I realize I have been practicing for this moment in time gives me confidence. I am made for more, my God is bigger than any craving.
“I am offering my wants up to You, Lord!”