Today begins Chapter 1 of An Untroubled Heart by Micca Campbell, to join the study go to http://www.MelissaTaylor.org and sign up. To get in on the discussion for Chapter 1 click here.
Perseverance & Endurance
The Merriam-Webster definition of perseverance: continued effort to do or achieve something despite difficulties, failure or opposition. The action or condition or an instance of persevering: steadfastness.
The definition of endurance: the ability to withstand hardships or adversity; the ability to sustain a prolonged stressful event or activity. The act or an instance of enduring or suffering.
For the last 35 some years I have been living a life of perseverance and endurance. You see I have had a lot of chaos and upheaval in my life – as a child, a young mother, a young wife and a mother to an adult child that needs 24/7 care. The last year has probably been one of the absolute hardest I have lived through and I have been very mad about it!! I was mad at God who very well could have instantly made things better and i kept crying out to Him “why? Why must I live with total chaos my whole life? Don’t I deserve some peace? When will things change?”
I felt deep in my heart the answer “when you allow ME to work in your son’s life.” My gut reaction was a fear so strong I uttered “but I can’t let go.” Then an incident happened that opened my eyes to show me that by holding on too tight I was harming my son more. I prayed that night giving him to the LORD fully and completely. Then I was brought to this Scripture:
But as for the seed that fell on rich soil, they are the ones, when they have heard the word, embrace it with a good and generous heart, and bear fruit through perseverance. ~ Luke 8:15
I can not bear good fruit by holding on so tightly to my plans or living as a victim. God has other plans for my life and that of my son. I believe God is showing me that, though my life is filled with chaos I need only to look at Him for my peace. Peace is not about the perfect circumstances but found in persevering and endurance through the storm, with eyes on Jesus who is my Refuge and Shield. So now through the chaos I look to Him not asking “why?” but “what lesson am I learning? How do You wish to strengthen me, mold me and shape me through this event?”