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I would like to update our story – an update that came after I wrote this. After praying for many years for peace to come to our home (and with a side note prayer of ‘please LORD don’t make me wait as long as Abraham and Sarah did for Isaac’) our home has peace. Our son just moved into his own place. He is living in an ISL – Independent Structured Living home. He has 2 roommates and a full-time staff to help him with life skills and social skills.
It is amazing the difference in my life all of a sudden. For 22 years I am on my knees begging God to “fix it,” at times getting so angry with Him, at times yelling at Him “why would you give me this life after all the stuff of my childhood?” I resented God very much at times. I feel into deep depressions over the years. Then after letting go and giving EVERYTHING to God not just in my words but in my heart, soul and actions it was like a light switch was flipped. One day we have strife and heartache the next day we are packing up our son to begin his new life. I never thought I would live to see the day when we didn’t have to be the 24/7 caregivers for our son. I never thought we would get to live like newlyweds, just the two of us – we have always had kids.
Do I still live with regrets – no, not any more. If I wouldn’t have lived through every trial, every heartache, every fall I wouldn’t have come to rely on Jesus as my EVERYTHING.
Our daughter, who for many years had her life interrupted by our son moves into her own apartment on June 1st.
After I get done recovering from 22 years of sleep deprivation, we will enjoy every minute of our empty nest. I also look to healing our relationship with our son. I have used many Scriptures to get me through the dark days but God kept putting one specific one in front of me through the last several years:
For I know the plans I have for you, says the LORD, plans to prosper you, not to harm you! Plans to give you a future and hope. ~Jeremiah 29:11
I pray that you are comforted by God in reading my story. That you will know nothing is impossible for HIM. No amount of time passed, regrets, wishes for do-overs, no matter how old or young your children are, no matter how old or young you are, He is there waiting to redeem you and your story, He is standing there at your side waiting for you to hand it all over to Him. Dear Lord, I ask for Your comfort, Your loving arms to be wrapped around each person who reads this story today. Fill them up with Your grace, mercy, forgiveness and love. Let them know they are never alone and that they are valuable to You. In Jesus’ Name Amen