I’m Somewhere in Here

So excited to see what Heather has for us today while she steps in for Melissa.  Join me for today’s post by Heather, by clicking here.

This is the title to Chapter 4 of I Used to be So Organized by Glynnis Whitwer.  The title capture my attention immediately, I feel like that often:  Somewhere inside me is ME.  I have been finding bits and pieces slowly but I still can’t quite get a picture of who I am. It is scary and exciting at the same time but more often it’s very lonely.

Not only did the title speak to me but sadly the truths Glynnis learns about herself are the same things I have been learning about myself and slowly through each Bible study they have been stripped away one by one.  I can relate to the behaviors Glynnis writes about:

  • I have lived my whole life on building my worth on my accomplishments;
  • I tried so hard for so long to control the world around me only to have it come crashing down;
  • Frustration reigned in my heart and mind more than anything else;
  • My heart was a mess;
  • I moped when I didn’t get my way;
  • Poison and bitterness filled my thoughts;
  • Low self-esteem, depression and feeling like a nobody has been with me for my whole life
  • I was self-centered;
  • Self-interest motivated much of my life;
  • I was motivated to prove myself worthy to others and myself by what I did;
  • My priorities were upside down;
  • It has at times (even now sadly) been about me, me, me;

 I don’t have it all together; I am a work in progress needing my Creator’s Hand each and every day.  Some days I slip back into my old habits but I catch myself pretty quickly or something comes to my attention and slaps me.

In this day and age it is easy to fall into the trap that doing more is the key to success, financial freedom and happiness but I have lived that way too long, I know that’s NOT the key.  The key is as Glynnis writes is by BEING versus DOING (page 52).  By being centered in God’s will.  If your heart is where God wants it to be, you’ll see things with new eyes, have more peace and feel less pressured to get things just so (page 54).

Take the time to enjoy the simple pleasures.  Don’t feel guilty for sitting on the porch enjoying nature, soaking in your children’s play time, enjoying a leisure hour or two with your loved one.

I drive my family crazy because I take pictures of everything, no matter what is going on.  I take pictures of the sky as we drive to dinner.  I take pictures of beautiful flowers as walk into a business, church, and someone’s home.  I take pictures of probably twenty things each and every day.  Why?  Because I don’t want to forget the way God shows up in my life.  I want to treat every day as if it were special; these moments are gone before we know it.  I have learned to stop and enjoy the simply things – however, I still need help to match my outsides with my insides (page 47).

If you would like to join our Bible study, it’s not too late.  To find out more information or to sign up go to Melissa Taylor’s website.  I want to leave you today with one verse from Chapter 4 along with one saying that my friend Karen Dye has taught me.

“The LORD does not look at the things man looks at.  Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”  1 Samuel 16:7b

*~* It’s NOT about me, it’s all about HIM *~*

It’s all about Him. From Girl Talk “live”


Winners Announced……

First I would like to thank everyone who posted comments on Dawn’s blog, Melissa’s blog and my blog. Thank you so much for taking time out of your busy schedules to read the posts and to leave comments. I appreciate it very much, knowing how precious your time is. I look forward to joining everyone for the next Melissa Taylor Online Bible Study of “I Used to be So Organized” by Glynnis Whitwer.

Since there were so many comments expressing interest and needing help in the area of organization, there is more than one winner. Thank you to my friend, Donna for generously donating along with me to provide more winners.

Our big winner of the book and conference call goes to Teresa Richardson.

The winner for the book goes to Genia Brown Harrison – please email me your address

The winner for the conference call series goes to Genia Brown Harrison – please email me your phone number so I can set up your conference call.

Congratulations to all and thank you!

UPDATE: 5/30/12 I just realized I made a typing error. Angel Parnell was the. Conference call winner. However since I messed up and posted another winner for the calls I will honor that one as well!!!


Hello there!! If you are visiting from Dawn’s blog I welcome you and thank you do much for your time.

I hope you take a look around and see what I have been up too for the past couple of months. Mainly I have been learning to trust God with EVERYTHING in my life. I have also been helping lead women to do the same thing. I am or I am privileged to be on Melissa Taylor’s online Bible study leadership team.

If you have never signed up for an Online Bible Study we have just the thing for you!!! Our next study begins on June 3rd – I Used to be so Organized!! Check it out by visiting Melissa Taylor’s blog

If you sign up for the study and comment on Dawn’s blog,

Melissa’s blog and here you will be entered to win the book and the conference call series!!!  Please be sure to leave a comment for Dawn and Melissa on each of their blogs, thanking them for their time and dedication to their ministries.  Drawing on Monday, May 28th.



The next Bible Study beginning June 3rd.




Chapter 8 ~ An Untroubled Heart

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness” ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9

I remember the day I finally realized exactly what this verse meant. It was the day I finally gave up my son to the LORD, which came after a very tumultuous night. I woke up the next morning with a very heavy heart, I couldn’t’ shed another tear and I was angry, this time though instead of being angry at God, I got made – VERY MAD – at satan.

I started yelling “you can NOT have my son – he belongs to Christ. You may have been successful up to this point but NO MORE. he is covered by Jesus’ death on the Cross. No longer will I allow you to control my mind, my emotions or my behavior by fear of my son. You are don here, NOW BE GONE!!!!!”

Immediately I began to laugh at how foolish it would have looked to someone to walk into my bedroom and see me that way, but I didn’t care I was full of a peace I had never felt. I felt something other than fear for my son’s future finally sink into my heart. I knew without a doubt the future didn’t hold despair instead it held hope. I let Jesus speak to my heart and I was reassured:

That no matter what happened to my son on this earth, NOTHING could take him away from Jesus. This life isn’t what matters. It’s not the main even, it’s the opening act. No matter what heartache I may face in the future with my son, no matter how heavy my mama’s heart may get, I can live through it, why? Because I have my source of strength and my source of hope in Christ. Nothing on this earth can overcome the LORD and my son belongs to the King of all kings!

That was the day I finally decided to let go and let God have full control of my son’s life AND my mama’s heart. That was also the day I began to see His mighty hand. The day everything in my life changed.

My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my refuge and my savior. ~ 2 Samuel 22:3

Visit Melissa Taylor’s website for more on An Untroubled Heart Bible study.

Welcome from Hidden Joy

If you are visiting from Wendy Blight’s Hidden Joy study, I welcome you and encourage you to look around my blog.  On the right hand side if you click on the word “Bible Studies” it will bring up all my Hidden Joy posts, I haven’t transferred all of them to the Hidden Joy category just yet.

I hope that my story gives you encouragement to stay with your own journey. It will get hard, but as I have learned it’s always darkest before the shining light comes into our lives.  Stay strong, read your Bible everyday, carve out time to sit with God quietly each day and never put too much pressure on yourself to be perfect.  Remember He is strong in our weakness.

I am praying for each one of you.  If you have a prayer request, please post it here or email me at so I can pray for a with you.  You are not alone in your journey, your HJ sisters are with you, Wendy is with you, I am with you, but most of all HE is with you through each step.

What is impossible for man is POSSIBLE with God ~ Luke 18:27

Chapter 7 ~ An Untroubled Heart

I am not going to write very much on this chapter, for two reasons:

  1. My journal on this chapter really is more tied with chapter 8; and
  2. There is some mighty awesome news over at Melissa Taylor’s website, check out the comment from Ellie!!!

As I read chapter 7 a second time and a third time one song kept coming to mind; In Christ Alone by Brian Littrel.

Artist: Brian Littrell
Song: In Christ Alone


In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself in battles won
For I’ve been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone I’ll overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes like diamonds in my hands
But those trophies could not equal to the grace by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope

Is Christ alone

In Christ alone do I glory
For only by His grace I am redeemed
For only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness to my need
And now I seek no greater honor in just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory in the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope

Now isn’t that just perfect for this chapter?  For me it’s a perfect reminder for my life!!!

Chapter 6 – Part 2

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him.”  ~ Romans 8:28

When you read that verse do you believe that?  Do you believe that in your heart, in your soul and in your mind?  Do you believe that and trust in it when chaos is part of your world?  Do you believe in it when you are living through what can only be described as a “living hell?”

I have to say, before this past year of my own “living hell” I only believed in it when things were going well.  During the rough times, I would read this verse, yelling at God “really?”  However, through several events in the last nine years I have learned to believe this verse in my heart, in my soul and in my mind.  Now when this verse comes to mind, it is followed up with Scripture used in Chapter 1 of An Untroubled Heart:

Consider it all joy my brothers, when you encounter various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.  And let perseverance be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.  ~ James 1:2-4

Reminds me of the saying “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.”  I can now look back on the journey of the last nine years and see God was there all along.  Had I given up my plans, my ways and my need for control, I would have saved a lot of heartache.  I can look back at the last eighteen months specifically and see how each set back, each heartache, each dream lost was a bigger piece of  my story.  My story of finding Jesus and learning to trust Him.  Each one was an important step in faith.  Each heartache was strengthening me for the next step.  Each time I said goodbye to another dream, was in preparation for a dream Jesus had for me.  And just when I cried out “Jesus, this is too much!”  He would place upon my heart:

You can do all things through Me.  Pick up your cross and follow Me.

On Ash Wednesday, I finally did!  I picked it up and surrendered it all to Him:  my fear, my anger, my dreams, my control, my husband, my children, absolutely EVERYTHING!!  And that’s when I saw His mighty power, that’s when I saw the impossible happen.  That’s when I knew I can do nothing in my power.  That’s the day I let go of worry, fear and trying to control everything in my life.

Over the six weeks of Lent, I conditioned my mind not to worry or fear.  If I began to worry I would immediately say “God has it covered, MOVE FORWARD!”  Ironically, if I subconsciously begin to worry I don’t realize it until I say that phrase out loud – makes for interesting conversation at work.

I pray that Romans 8:28 will help you lose your fears and know you are valuable to God.  You are His delight!

The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save.  He will take great delight in you, He will quiet your with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.  ~ Zeph. 3:17


For more encouragement on Learning to Trust, visit Melissa Taylor’s website for a great post by Stephanie Clayton.